Thursday, April 07, 2011

tomorrow.

tomorrow is friday, april 8th...i knew this day was coming:
it's my last day of maternity leave.

wasn't it just yesterday that justin and i were driving to the hospital with snow covering the ground getting ready to meet little miss stella? it seems like it was just yesterday but really it was 12 weeks ago. and so i have to go back to work on monday.

am i ready? no.
do i wish i had 12 more weeks? yes.

but right now, God has me in this stage. a stage in which my new normal will include being a mom to 2 precious little ones, a wife to the most perfect man for me, a teacher to 21 sweet 4th graders who need me to be fully ready to learn with them, and a friend to the most amazing friends a girl could ask more.

am i overwhelmed by my new normal? yes.
do i think i can do it all? no.
but i know that God will provide all that i need for this new normal.

my heart is full. full of love for these 2 little ones. i couldn't ask for anything else but to be with them all the time but right now i am going to embrace my new normal and try to be the best mom, wife, teacher, and friend i know how to be.

For the next 8 weeks til summer, I am going to cling to these verses from Psalms 37:

Delight yourself in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the Lord; trust in him, and he will act.

2 comments:

Ryan and Carrie said...

You may not remember me, but I was one year behind you in TriDelt at Baylor. This post was very encouraging and exactly what I needed to read. I have six weeks left of maternity leave with my second baby and then will return to teaching for the last three weeks. I will be praying for your return and for your "new normal". Carrie

Jennifer said...

I'll be a listening ear and ready for a drink run anytime! Love the bluebonnets!